Yesterday I listened to a sermon about being a light. About letting God shine through you, and bringing yourself and other people out of darkness. Not just physical darkness, or spiritual darkness, but any darkness that doesn’t allow a person to be the absolute best they can be. It was a challenge pointed directly at me. I can’t remember the last time I thought of myself as a light, as someone who was worthy of piercing darkness in its fullness. I am in a great place right now, living in Dubai, having a man I love, being in contact with my family on a regular basis, traveling as much as I can. But it was a challenge to be even better in every single aspect of my life. I wrote about this a little bit two posts ago and I tried to improve myself on my own (just a note: not much was happening lol)…. but as I listened to this sermon I thought… man, it would be easier if I hand it over to God, and let Him work his magic. And it has been freeing, and it has been a high, because everything seems so much more simple. I’ve thought of a multitude of ways to implement this in my own life, from work, to working out, to eating healthy, to living each day with passion and love in my heart. This high is something that comes from giving myself over to God. And I can’t do it once, I have to do it day in and day out. Having this high has made me think though…. about how this could be one of the reasons non-Christian people think that Christians think they’re better than them (which some do), it could be one of the reasons Christian people come across so abrasive and sometimes even hateful and intolerant (which some do), it could be one of the reasons that separates Christian from non-believers. Everyone loves a light that pierces the darkness (except when they’re sleeping :p ), everyone loves someone else who is being the very best they can be especially when it improves their own life. Not everyone appreciates that light being shined directly in their face and blinding them… they’d prefer the dark in that instance. It’s so hard to find a balance though. When you have so much good energy and love flowing through you, you just want to share it and share why you have it. But sharing it without having that balance of being open and welcoming to challenges and new ideas, it’s going to push people away. I think it is so important for us, as Christ-followers, to cloak ourselves with the love of Christ and share it, but in a Christ-like way. And I think people forget that. And not always because they’re on a God-high and are being obnoxious, but also when they forget what the Light is like. It’s important to live in the Light, while gently and lovingly and humbly giving other people light…. and realizing it doesn’t always have to be “GOD GOD GOD!”, but just being good to humanity, and always remembering where your light comes from, and sharing it when the opportunity strikes. It’s even more important to never tell yourself that you are better than someone just because you have this Light. Remember you are not worthy of it, and they are just as worthy to have it. And even if they don’t have it, it doesn’t make you “better” necessarily (unless you are just amazing without sin and everything you do is for the good of everything), it just makes you a child of God, which really is amazing in itself to have this precious gift, so appreciate it and love it but remember it’s not you who produces this Light, but God.
ps. writing about this is just my moment of thinking about things, the subject has more depth than I have time to write about, and I’m sure I’ll forget some of it sometimes since I’m human…. but it’s where I am at today and I am loving the Light but I never want to close myself off to other people. Especially given my circumstances of where I am living, and the man I am in love with.
11a renewal in which there is no distinction between Greek and Jew, circumcised and uncircumcised, barbarian, Scythian, slave and freeman, but Christ is all, and in all. 12So, as those who have been chosen of God, holy and beloved, put on a heart of compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience; 13bearing with one another, and forgiving each other, whoever has a complaint against anyone; just as the Lord forgave you, so also should you